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Name: bonnie
Country: United States
State: Washington
Metro: Bellingham
Birthday: 4/16/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: uhm, well, i love: Jesus, sports, music (ska, emo, screamo, alternative/rock, hardxcore, metal, powerpop, punk, and some rap), animals, drawing, books (well, some books.. not all), writing.. and, of course, YOU! or at least i'd like to think so.. yup, i love you.
i hate: my mom's perfume, needles, and papercuts.
Expertise: i'm an expert on making odd facial expressions that people find interesting. or at least the facial expressions they give me in return would suggest so. or when they just flat out say it, that kinda suggests so as well, i suppose.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: bittersweet491@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  xlikexaxracecarx
AIM:  showbreadxx
Member Since:
9/15/2004
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| ten simple pleasurestagged by Jay = )
01. Talking and walking with Jesus
02. Talking with Ian late into the night
03. Waking up to a bright, sunny day
04. Walking around town on a brisk autumn day, with leave allll over the place = )
05. Playing games or reading a good book in a warm, cozy house while it's snowing
06. Baking/cooking food for other people
07. Singing along to a favorite song when it first comes on the radio
08. Hearing an awesome sermon at church
09. Hanging out with my awesome buddies
10. Writing anything..
I tag...
Jareth, Andy, Jon, Kylee, Lani, Paz, Luke, Andrew, Chuggums.. I can't think of a 10th person on my list, so that'll do | | |
| Hey all,
Haley told me I better update this here thingamabober, sooo that's what I'm doing!
But what to say? I'm not sure..
Uhm, school's getting close to finally being done, so yay for that! Just trying hard to get the last minute projects done and studying for finals; Yuck! But oh well.. I've only got a week of LHS left, and 8 days of ZA. I get done with Driver's Ed. on the 15th too. Hoorah! Oh! And another thing I'm excited for...... *drum roll*.... Ian's coming up! In 13 days from today.. gonna be pretty awesome = ).
So I guess that's it for now, laters! | | |
| Wow. Once again, it's been a LONG time. So for the record, a whole lot has been going on. I've been going to ZLO again for about a month and a half; I'm enjoying that pretty well. At the end of February, I dropped my English class which leaves me without a real English course for an entire year. Then again, I don't see much of a point in taking English anymore.. there's not a whole lot really crucial to learn. Oh well.. I'm still taking a class at LHS which is going decent. I pick up what I can on the days that I'm there.
Aside from that, youth group's not going too swell. I haven't gone in about a month and a half for a couple reasons. First off, the timing sucks. Wednesdays are always days to cram everything together. Second, when it does work, mom doesn't wanna drive into Bellingham, and if she does, I generally don't find myself with any desire to go. Ever since probably 7th grade, the main reason to go to youth group for me was for the chance to hang out with friends and socialize. Since that aspect of it's gone, it seems rather pointless. Youth group is kind of like our church; only go into and explore "safe" topics, or if they're "edgy" topics, only speak with proven fact, be sure not to offend anyone. I guess that's just getting old, I can learn a whole lot more elsewhere or even on my own.
Then the library.. I'm not quite sure what's up with that; the past couple weeks they don't have work for me. Susan's been gone, so that probably has something to do with it. She'll be back tomorrow, so we'll see how that goes.
That basically sums up my life away from the house. Pretty pathetic, no? I'd be inclined to say "yes". I guess life at home is pretty depressing. Having some issues with dad of which basically suck to their complete and utter core. Oh, and then there's mom.. I guess it's been an ongoing thing for pretty much ever, but it's kind of getting to me. Like, how she can't keep focus on a simple conversation unless it's something she wants to talk about. Thing is, whatever she wants to talk about is usually pretty.. I don't know, saying "personal" sounds tacky, but I suppose that's what you'd call it. We don't have a real great relationship, never have. It's more about being able to co-exsist peacefully rather than being close. So when she wants me to open up and pour my heart out, I've got a hard time with that. Anytime I have, the matters at hand and my feelings have only been scoffed and mocked, which leads into an argument (and that just makes everything so much better...) so why would it be any different now?
I don't know. Now so many of my friends that I've depended on in the past seem to be abondoning me, and that's not a super feeling either. For those of you that have stuck around, I thank you dearly from the bottom of my heart; you really do mean a whole lot to me. To any of you fair weather friends that are just around for the fun times, please don't even bother anymore. I'd rather live a life of complete solitude, just me and God, than have friends I can't rely or depend upon when the ride isn't so thrilling. And one last thing, if anyone is reading this and say they're finding me doing the same for them, please let me know.
Geeze, it's getting late.. and this is getting really long. So hey, saved the best for last? Absolutely. It's only about 3 weeks until Spring Break, which means it's 3 weeks until we (meaning my family and I) go to Colorado and get to hang out with Ian and meet his family. "I'm so excited, but I'm also scared", not as in frightened, but I've got a fair dose of nervousness about it. It's not the dominate emotion, but it's still something, and if those 3 weeks don't speed on by, I might just loose my mind (oops, I forgot.. too late for that). Instead.. well, I don't know what. But it obviously couldn't/wouldn't be a good thing.
I guess that's all I can think of, or even have time to write about for now. To everyone out there, a Happy St. Patrick's day (well, post-St. Patrick's Day by about an hour and a half..). Laterish » | | |
| FINALS are DONE!! Which also means I am no longer a full-time student at LHS, and I don't think today could've been any better. Well, I know it could have, but under circumstances, it wouldn't have. It was awesome. I've actually got free time.. imagine that. It's really weird though.. for an entire month, I was pretty much loathing my math teacher, but lately, just the past couple weeks, I've been analyzing what he says.. and.. I feel bad for him. The way he lives his life.. I wish I could've gotten to know him better, I know that towards the end he started liking me as a student (maybe he always did and I was too consumed with being upset at him? I don't know). I absolutely still stick to the fact that he's a horrible math teacher, but there's a whole lot more to learn from him than just math.. So I was crying about that a little this evening when Ian and I were talking about school.. felt like an idiot, but it makes me sad to think of how my teacher lives everyday of his life and how he must feel about it.. I don't know. I just don't know... | | |
| Ok, so is this just me, or is Xanga totally dead? It seems like it lately. But anyhow. I really don't know what to say, I'd elaborate on how excited I am that Ian's coming up in 5 DAYS!! But then I'd never fall asleep. Haha, uhm, yeah, I honestly don't know what to say. Except that I never knew that Ben ever liked me.. that was kind of weird to find out today (yeah, just kind of). Oh well, so, since I have nothing to say, I shall bid thine adieu.
¤ Bonnie | | |
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